Monday, May 24, 2010

Holy Moly!!!

Where do I begin?!?!?!

I have been way way out of touch with the blogging world for a long time. I started a blog years ago as a way to help myself through a very difficult time in my life. I had cancer. There were times I didn't think I would make it through. I finally decided to let them do the mastectomy. That, I believe, is what saved my life. Afterwards I did a lot of soul searching. I looked deap into myself and really saw myself. It didn't look very good to be perfectly honest. I hadn't been happy for a very long time. I feel as if I'd been treading water and slowly drowning. So, I made some changes. Very drastic changes. I'm talkin, not even the same person, changes. Seriously.

The first change I made was to get right with myself. Accept the things I can't change and change the things I can. So, I did. I started first with my religion. I had been involved in the ocult for a long time. The very scary thing is that I enjoyed it. I studied it and became a high ranking member of my group. I won't go into detail about what it was or how I got there. The important thing is that I am out. After my father passed away I really began to search for where I truly belonged. Oddly enough one afternoon I found myself sitting in my mother's pastor's office pouring out my heart and soul. Life for me changed in that afternoon. I got my sorry butt back into church where I belonged and it wasn't long before I was kneeling at the alter praying with that same pastor. Asking the Lord to forgive me of everything I had done in my life. I was baptised 2 Sundays later. My oldest daughter now askes me when she can be reborn. Her way of saying born again. I tell her when it's her time the Lord will tell her.

Another major change I made was my sexuality. I had been living the life of a lesbian for all or most of my adult life. It was in the pastors office that magical day that I changed that part of myself as well. A few months after I was baptised a new man walked into our church and because I was involved in the new believers social group I was one of the first to meet him. I won't go into detail of his life and what brought him through our doors but it wasn't long before he made his way into my heart. 8 and a half months later I became Mrs. Daniel Landry and I have never been happier in my life. We now have 3 children. My daughter whom he adopted and 2 we adopted together. Cancer left me unable to have more children. Riley entered our life a year ago at the age of 18 months and 6 months ago Mason came to be our son at birth.

I am so madly in love with my life and all that are in it. Words just can't express.


Java said...

Wow what a wonderful story! I'm so glad that you found happiness and it sounds like you have a wonderful hubby and kids! Now I see where you got the title of your blog from!!