Together Again

My last entry talked about my being a "single mom" of sorts. My husband was diployed for a short time and I was adjusting to life with 3 kids and no husband around. It's not much fun let me tell ya. I haven't blogged in a while. A few things kept me from being here like I would have liked to be. #1 was my husband being gone and having my kids to care for alone. #2..My son, the youngest, was sick and the dr couldn't pin point the problem. So he spent a couple days in the hospital, which broke my heart, then he was seen by a specialist. Somehow he had developed a blood infaction. My little guy is a drug baby. So far he's not shown many ill effects from his ordeal early in life, but no one knows what the future will bring. We adopted him and brought him into our home knowing we would have these problems but we love him dearly and wouldn't change a thing. My husband was sent home because of the seriousness of our son's situation. Obviously he was pretty sick.

So hubby his home now. Which is where I prefer him.

Learning New Things

As I find myself getting use to this sort of "single" life I am learning that I really don't like it. I'm missing my husband so much it's killing me. Ok so that was a little dramatic. I am not a drama queen. Really I'm not. This is the first time we've been apart for this length of time since we've been married. We'll be married 3 years in Nov.

The first thing I had to get use to was being a sort of single mom to 3 children under the age of 10. Before we were married I was a single mom to my eldest daughter. 1 is easy. 3..not so much. However, I have wonderful friends, wonderful step kids (grown) and amazing in-laws. So I do get some "me" time. It's just a little different.

I am also learning to use Skype. That is awesome. I can see his face..which of course makes me miss him even more. Sigh.

Follow Friday

Hello to my lovely followers. How are you?I have been so very busy lately. My hubby is officially out at sea for 6-9 months. With the Navy you never know for sure. Sometimes they say one thing and do something completely different. I was under the impression that he wasn't suppose to be deployed again before retirement, which is just a couple years away, but apparently I misunderstood what was said (rolling my eyes) Apparently we were told we wouldn't be transferred again before retirement. Oh my mistake. Anyhoo, So the kids and I are making the best of the rest of summer. School starts in a few weeks, no I'm not counting the days what mother does that, ha ha. Last weekend I went for a kid free weekend to Victoria BC. I went with a couple friends. We had the best time. Remember I was kid free so a good time was had by all. It's really very beautiful there. We took a ton of pictures (I grabbed the correct camera..remember 4th of July?) Our small groups bible study started again yesterday. I missed it so much. I belong to a group of moms lead by our pastors wife. We meet at a different members house every week. It's a lot of fun. We have a little bit of social time, swap kid stories, then get down to studying. This week's topic was being filled with the Spirit. It's always a wonderful and uplifting time.

A Mothers Rendition To William Tell Overture

Where Oh Where Have I Been?

Have you been wondering? Probably not and that is alright. I've just been busy. I told myself when I restarted this blog that I was going to be here faithfully every day, never miss it, blah blah blah. Anyway, obviously that all went out the window. My husband has been gone doing some navy training thing in Norfolk. Last weekend he came home for a 72 hour leave so we pretty much just hung out together with the kids. He's gone again for another 3 weeks. Gotta love the navy.

We are rapidly approaching the first day of school. The day every parent dreams about from the day after the last day of school. It's no longer the sad occasion it once was. Leaving them on the first day of kindergarten or even first grade with tears in your eyes as you realize your baby is growing up. Now...You long for the day the school bus comes and whisks your precious child away for 8 beautiful hours. You get up early, you make a lunch and lovingly pack it into the new lunchbox, you check the backpack, you feed them, then you open the door and watch as they walk to the bus stop. Once the bus is out of sight you call up all of your mommy friends and the party begins. The first day of school celebration where you all do the happy dance!

It is at this time of year that I don't mind shopping. New clothes, new shoes, new school supplies. All in anticipation of the wonderful sight of the big yellow school bus. Please don't get me wrong, I adore my children. I would give my life to save the life of my children, However, Summer vacation is so long lol. "I'm bored, there's nothing to do, there's no one to play with" It doesn't take long before the sound of my school age child's voice starts to sound like fingernails on a chalkboard lol. Now, I am a patient mom, a creative mom, even a fun mom but like any mom those words echo in your head and never seem to go away. Over and over you hear them. In your sleep you hear them. In just a few short weeks...sweet relief.

I should write a poem. "ode to the first day of school" Pretty sure it would make me famous.

Conversation With A 9 Year Old

Recently my 9 year old told me she wants to be a missionary when she grows up. I thought that was pretty cool. So 2 days ago she says she either wants to be a missionary or a flight attendent.

So..

I say, "why a flight attendent"

9 year old, "because you get to go places"

I say, "missionaries get to go places too"

9 year old. "I'll have to think about that"

9 year old, "Mom do missionaries get paid?"

I say, "of course they get paid"

9 year old, "Who do missionaries work for?"

I say, "who do you think they work for?"

9 year old, " oh yeah, Jesus, duh."

I'm A Lazy Mom

Yep you read that right. I am a lazy mom. I make my eldest pick up after herself and clean her own room, I'm a mom not a maid. If she wants a snack and it doesn't require the stove she can get it herself (after approval from mom of course) I am a mom not a short order cook. She has to help with the laundry and the dishes. Call me a lazy mom for raising my children to be responsible and helpful. I did do a lazy mom job today however. I am following the lazy mom blog on Facebook. Go me! Lazy mom job done. I can go outside and play now.

Hubby called today from Virginia!!! He gets a 72 hour leave in 3 weeks!! AND already has tickets in hand!! I love the Navy again!

My Husband Left Me..

Ha ha made ya look. Seriously though he did leave me. For a 6 week training thing in Norfolk VA. This should be the last time he leaves until he retires. That is IF you can believe the military lol which usually you can not. I would say I am a single mom for a few weeks but as luck has it I have a whole group of navy wives to count on if need be. Thank you Jesus lol.

Saturday we picked up our daughter from camp. She had so much to say and to tell us. She didn't stop talking until we dropped the kids off at our friends for the night. We took the family to the aquarium in Seattle for the day.

This I do have pictures for, unlike 4th of July, and I will post them..eventually. After dropping the kids off we met some friends for dinner then made our way to Federal Way to see Michael W. Smith in concert. He's the "other" man in my life. I absolutely LOVE him. The concert was amazing.

Isn't he a cutiepatootie

Meet Me On Monday

I'm adding mine on Sunday as usual because you just never know what Monday will bring lol.

1.What do you normally eat for breakfast?

Usually I have a bagel and coffee. Once in a while a cup of yogurt with it.

2.

What kind of car do you drive?

A Volkswagen Routon

3. Have you ever met a famous person(s)?

Nope

4.What is your favorite ice cream flavor?

Ben and Jerry's Chocolate fudge brownie

5.Which TV channel do you watch the most?

Depends on the night. Usually USA or TNT.

Date Night Postponed

I'm not sure if it's a matter of opinion or a proven fact but I believe every marriage needs down time. Not down time away from each other. Just the opposite. Down time away from the kids. Dh and I take a night a week for us. We go out to dinner, a movie or even just a walk through the mall. Anything to be together, just us. Sometimes life gets so chaotic. If it's not one thing it's another and it's easy to drift apart and just co-exist. So, Fridays are usually our us time. This week, however, we are postponing until tomorrow. Our eldest daughter comes home from camp in the late morning so we'll have a little family time. Maybe we'll go to the aquarium in Seattle. Tomorrow night is date night. We're going to dinner with a couple of friends from church then off to see Michael W. Smith in Federal Way. I call him "the other man in my life" I love his music and his concerts are so spirit filled. It's a wonderful experience.

Thank you to all of you who follow my little blog. I never thought of it as something someone else would want to read.

John 4:23-24 "Yet a time is coming and has now come when the true worshipers will worship the Father in Spirit and truth, for they are the kind of worshipers the Father seeks. God is Spirit, and His worshipers must worship in spirit and in truth."

I'm a lover of many different types of music. My favorite by far is contemporary Christian. Michael W. Smith being my very favorite. The song in the below video touches my heart every time I hear it. It is by His amazing grace that I am saved from the sin that gripped me and held me hostage for so long.

Romans 3:23-24 "For all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God and are justified freely by His grace through the redemption that came by Jesus Christ"

Michael W. Smith - Amazing Grace (My Chains Are Gone) (Live)

Sometimes You Just Have To Make Hamburger Helper

My husband is 8 years older than I am. He was married once before me and has 2 other grown children in addition to our 3 little ones. We get a long very well. Thank goodness. Jessica, my step-daughter, works for a company that cares for adults with mental and physical disabilities. She is assigned to a group home and takes care of 3 men. She just started back in December and I was a little concerned at first. Because of their mental state these guys can be violent. It's not something that happens on purpose. It just happens. So far she's been lucky. The guys love her. They call her momma Jessie. She's younger than they are but they don't know that. Mentally they are between the ages of 7 and 12. Anyway, She often calls just to gab. She's not that close to her own mom so I am the next best thing I think. One of the guys loves to talk on the phone when she calls. It is so sweet. I hear all about his day, the pictures he took (he got a new digital camera for his birthday) It's sweet knowing this man is my age but the mentality of my eldest daughter. Jessie loves her job and she loves those guys.

I have to admire those who can do a job like that. It would be like taking care of the elderly. I don't think I could do it on a full time basis. I took care of my dad after his strokes before he passed away. It was very hard. Sometimes though I wonder if it was harder because he was my dad and there was an attachment that wouldn't be there with a stranger. I don't know. Sometimes I get a little philosophical about things lol.

There are times when I can't think of a dang thing to cook for dinner. I know Dh appreciates a nice meal after a 12 hour shift but once in a while my kitchen stumps me. The house is always full of food and things to cook so it's not for lack of things to cook. It's either lack of desire to stand at the stove and cook or lack of appetite..So once in a while you just have to make Hamburger Helper lol.

What No 4th of July Pictures!?!?!

Seriously! Dh and I had a huge 4th weekend. With the big shindig on base and parents of summer campers were invited Sunday for a shindig with our children up in the mountains I was all excited and ready to post some pictures. We took a bunch of pictures! So here I sat yesterday, in between baby naps and potty training sessions, ready to post some of our family 4th fun on facebook and here to my blog and there are NO pictures on our camera!!! Want to know why? I'll tell you. Dh grabbed the wrong camera. We still have a camera that requires film and it looks very similar to our digital. So there you are. No 4th pics. You will just have to take my word for it. Sorry. We all have imaginations though and can picture the fun we had lol.

Saturday we went to base and looked at all of the planes, went on a tour of a couple ships, had free hotdogs and soda, compliments of the US government (thank you tax payers lol) Watched the air show and a concert. Then fire works. My 2 year old I think was a little confused by it all. She usually doesn't see daddy on base without his uniform, I usually go to the commisary while he is at work and once in a while I will bring the kids over for a quick howdy do. A few of the men and women in Dh's squad came to say hello, even though they were on duty, and my Dd looked at Dh and said "Daddy why don't you have your clothes on" only in 2 and a half year old talk. Now I know all parents know that their kid is the cutest, smartest and most clever but come one...That was cute. Not to mention darn funny. By the time the fireworks started my 2 little ones were worn out and dead asleep in strollers and missed the whole show.

Sunday after church we headed up to the church camp to see our eldest who has been at camp for about 11 days now. It was beautiful up there. The kids put together a little program with a patriotic skit and singing. It was cute. I can't wait for her to be home Saturday.

So there you have it.

Meet me on Monday

I'm doing this a little early because who knows what I will be going tomorrow lol.I'm loving these little blog hop thingies.I hope some of you followers will jump on board for this one. It's fun and hosted by the loverly Java over at http://nevergrowingold.blogspot.com/Come play with us.1. What is your favorite Fast Food Restaurant?Del Taco!!!!!!!!! Ever since I was a kid2. If given a complete freedom to start afresh, what profession would you choose and why?Hmm I haven't thought about it but I love my current profession as a SAHM. I don't think I would want to change that3. Do you prefer your toilet paper to come over the roll or under the roll?It has to roll over the top. If Dh puts it on backwards I fix it lol. 4. What was your favorite tv show as a child?I think I have to copy Java's answer and say Little House on the prairie and Three's Company5. What is your favorite Summer drink?Iced Tea

I am really late in getting here today. I debated, for a split second, on skipping this week but obviously changed my mind. I will make this post short and sweet though, maybe. I have been on my feet and going all day. So much to do before the holiday weekend. Plus I had a hair appointment. A cut and color and I am a new woman. Well sort of. I took my son to the dr yesterday. He had immunizations, poor little guy, which of course put him in a bad mood and gave him a little fever. all he wated was to be held I had a hard time getting him down for a nap and when he finally gave up the dogs started barking and woke the little guy up. I was so mad. There is nothing worse than an icky feeling cranky infant, except maybe a cranky toddler.

Shopping Dislikes

There are few things that I really don't like shopping for. My husband would say that I have a degree in shopping. He's so funny..not. I actually have an MBA from Stanford, but I digress, I really enjoy antique shopping and the occasional yard sale. One of my Navy wives club friends loves to drag me along on her yard saling trips. You just never know what you will find in an antique shop or a yard sale. Some great treasures. Sometimes I even enjoy shopping at the commissary. This weekend, however, we're going to be mattress shopping. YUCK! I hate furniture shopping. We've needed a new mattress for a while now but put it off because we both loath furniture shopping. We always find things we fall in love with but really can't afford. I hate that. I also don't like shopping for shoes. I don't even like wearing shoes. When I was a kid I would only wear them when it was important. Like to school. Flip flops were my thing. I lived about 15 minutes from the ocean. What beach bum kid wears shoes. So think that is where my dislike for shoe shopping started.

After mattress shopping (gag) we're headed to the base for the Freedom celebration. An air show, concert and a massive bbq. I love being a Navy wife. Especially when we are celebrating our country or giving our respect to the men and women who defend this great country.

Questions:
1. Are you a collector of anything? I don't collect anything specific but I have a lot of books.
2. Do you have any tattoos or piercings? I have several piercings and a couple tatoos. One ear has 4 piercings and the other has about 9. I don't fill all the holes like I use to. My tat is 2 butterflies and a cute little frog with my kids names.
3. What is your favorite salad dressing? Lighthouse homestyle ranch or a really good italian
4. What was the last thing that you ate? A cup of cherry flavored italian ice.
5. What was the last movie that you saw? In the theater? It was so long ago I think the last one was Harry Potter and the half blood prince. At home hubby had xmen wolverine on yesterday

I started blogging a few years ago as a way to get my thoughts and feelings out while going through chemotherapy. I had cancer. It sucked. It's over and done with now thank goodness. This was back before you could "fallow" someone and there were none of the fun Friday things and the Monday things. You just posted. Plain and simple. Now though I think I like blogging much better. I really like the "fallow" feature. It means, to me, that people actually care to read what I have to say. That's so cool. My first blog, the cancer blog, is gone and pretty much forgotten. I deleted it. It served it's purpose, over stayed it's welcome. That kind of thing.

As I mentioned Friday, my eldest daughter went to camp for the first time. Today DH and I went to church like we do every Sunday. While waiting for the service to start DH does his deacon duties and I sit in our spot and read the bulletin. Listed after the offering is "special presentation" after DH sat down I asked if he knew what it was. He had no idea. Well, making a long story short, the camp kids made a little video and emailed it to the church office. It showed the kids getting on the busses, singing songs on the way to camp, getting off the busses and their activities over the last 2 days. It was wonderful! They are really having a great time. DD probably doesnt miss us at all. Sigh..lol

A Great Big Thank You...

To the ladies who stopped by and left wonderful comments on my blog.

I've been needing to get into my yard and do some work to my flower beds. So this morning we went to Lowe's. I got some pretty little flowers and a mixed flower pot. I love my flowers. I'm such a shmuck I hate it when DH kills the dandelions. I also got some more bird seed and another feeder for the big birds. This is my favorite time of year. I love to be outside tending my flowerbeds, feeding and watering the birds.

Fallow Me Friday

Afternoon Ladies!I missed last week so I wanted to hurry and get my things done today so I could come here and play with you all.How is everyone? I've had a busy couple of weeks. Last week DH was in a car accident on base. He is feeling much better though. Thank the Lord above he wasn't hurt seriously. Today we sent our eldest daughter to camp for 2 weeks. I think I embarrassed her a little. It's her first time away so naturally I cried my eyes out. I think it was worse than leaving her at school for the first time. She, on the other hand, couldn't wait to get on the bus and get away from mom and dad for 2 weeks. It's church camp so I know she will be well taken care of. It's just the idea that she's away from ME! Usually isn't it the kids that have separation issues? Not in this case. I barely got a kiss goodbye. I try to hold on tight at this age, 9, because I know from experience, having been a teenage myself once, that in 4 short years it's all over. She'll be 13, a teenager, and mom will cease to exist. Sigh.My 2 year old doesn't really know what is going on. All she knows is sister got on a big yellow bus and rode away. She clapped. It was funny. So I've been busy getting her ready. As I said in yesterday's post. Today I was making a mental list of all that I do and all that I am. The list is long. I am...A wife, mother, daughter, sister, friend.A Governor, law enforcement, Dr, Nurse, psychologist and peace keeperA cook, housekeeper, chauffeur, secretary, and secret keeperA Christian, faithful church attendee, a servant of God, and a DiscipleWow..No wonder I'm so tired at the end of the day. I wouldn't trade it for anything the world.

A Milestone and a busy week

So here I am back to my blog. I have had a really busy couple of weeks. I don't even really know why. If just seems that time went by really fast from the time I got up until I went to bed. I was non stop go go go. I hardly had time to sit and watch Days of Our Lives. Thank the Lord for DVR lol. Today is a slow day so I'm catching up. Wow I missed a lot lol.

Today is also the eve of a milestone for my eldest daughter. She's 9 and is going away to summer camp for the first time. I am excited for her and a little sad. It means she's growing up and venturing out, spreading her wings. This is part of why I was so busy this week. We were running around, list in hand, buying the things she needed for the 2 weeks away from home. She's so excited to go she has no idea my heart is breaking. Then I wonder why am I heartbroken over this? I should be excited to be a kid short for 2 week lol. Sadly no I am not excited. Maybe next year. So at 8am tomorrow DH and I will be at church watching the busses pull away with our little girl. Ok I will stop obsessing. A parent has to let go at some point right?

Busy, Busy, Busy Week

I wasn't real active in the blogging world last week. Life was busy. I had DH home all week. He was in an accident on base. Drunk guys going too fast after drinking too much at the e-club trying to get to the barracks. Ooops. Not a good thing to crash into a Navy commander after drinking too much at the e-club. No one was hurt too badly thank goodness. My hubby got the worst of it all. So I was busy tending to him and our children. My eldest started gymnastics this week. So now she's in dance, gymnastics and ice skating. she better go to the olympics and make all my driving pay off lol. I actually love it. I live for doing things for my kids and my husband.

Today is father's day. I miss my dad. He passed away a couple years ago. Happy Father's day daddy we miss you very much.

Dan, my love, father of my children. I love you with all my heart. You make me complete. You are my soulmate and the love of my life. Happy Father's day honey. I love you.

I'm a mom. it's what I do...

Have you ever had one of those days where you have a billion + 1 things to do and you just don't feel like doing any of it but you do it anyway because you're a mom and that's what you do.?.? Yeah...so have I...today. I did not want to get out of bed this morning, but I did because mornings are my "me" time. Then there was DH's breakfast to get ready and shove him out the door, then the baby was up and needed feeding, changing (the bath could wait) My toddler was up and full of spunk this morning, and my 9 year old told me she left her shoes at church yesterday. How did I let my child get into the car with no shoes? and why didn't she mention this BEFORE we left the church parking lot? Calgon take me away. So I got kids fed and dressed and loaded into the car, I go to the church and fetch the shoes, I go to the bank, I go to commisary. Baby had a check up, 9 year old had a dentist appt. Toddler has an accident and I have no change of clothes so into Target I go, baby needs feeding and 9 year old is hungry. DH calls and needs uniforms picked up.

all of this while reminding myself "I'm a mom it's what I do"

So before you get into a frazle and lose your head. Scream at the kids and rip off DH's head remember...You're a mom, It's what you do.

Here is a little about me. Questions:1. What kind of computer do you blog on?I use a new Dell laptop. Inspiron something or othere2. Do you wear perfume? If so, what kind?I usually just wear body sprays from bath and body works3. What do you do for a living?I'm a SAHM. I take care of 3 kiddos4. Do you have any pets? If so, what are they?do kids count? ha ha we have 3 little dogs5. Are you going anywhere for Summer vacation? If so, where?no specific plans for a long vacation. We have a little retreat up in the mountains we go to on weekends

Michael W. Smith - Amazing Grace (My Chains Are Gone) (Live)

The Power of a 2 Year Old

Never under estimate the power of a 2 year old. I sat down at the computer to play with my blog while ddR is down for her nap, or so I thought. I heard giggling coming from the hall bathroom and what did I find....R sitting on the floor pulling allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll of the TP off the roll and tearing it into little pieces. Do you ever have days that you have to remind yourself "i love being a mom, I love being a mom"

It's New Friend Friday. I welcome anyone who wants to fallow my little blog. So it's time to go play the blog hop. Welcome and enjoy. It's not much, I've been away from my blog for a long time but I am getting back into the swing of things.

Over 40 and Parenting

DH and I were talking last night. Discussing life and parenting over 40. Our oldest is 9 so needless to say I was much younger when she was a baby and toddler. Now, into our 40's, we are parents to a baby and a toddler. It's not as easy as it once was. Both of our youngest children are adopted so it was our choice to get back into parenting. Not an accident or midlife desires for another baby. It's just as fun as it was 9 years ago, don't get me wrong, but chasing after a toddler is tiring lol. I wouldn't change it for the world though. I love my life and my children more than anything in this world.

We're finding it a little harder to set aside some "us" time these days. DH's job is demanding (he's in the navy due to retire in a few years) and I just seem to be worn out at the end of the day. I look forward to weekends without the 48 hour duty stretch where I am, for 2 days, a single mom. I sympathize with mom's who's dh's are deployed. It's not easy. Thumbs up to you. Thankfully military wives are a close knit group and we help eachother.

So with all that said....Bring on the weekend!

Helpful hint of the day:: Always get dressed before putting on new nail polish. It's so much easier.

Life Changes

I seem to be a pro at life changing experiences. I have lived a couple different lives and it took me until my late 30's to finally find where I belonged, who I am suppose to be, and the life I have been born to live. It wasn't any one person who changed me. Ok well I take that back. It was the power of God and my belief system that changed me. But it took me a long time to find that. It takes an incredible amount of courage to change your life and to be honest with yourself enough to take a stand, make a statement and say this is who I am. As I said in a past post I lived a lot of my life as a lesbian. It took me a long time to realize that that wasn't what made me happy. I wasn't happy and I hurt a few people on my journey to happiness. For that I am sorry. I'm not sorry for my experiences, I am just sorry I had to damage others in my process of finding myself. I am still a big supporter of gay/lesbian rights.

I applaude Chely Wright for her courage and strength.

Sundays

Sundays are usually our favorite day of the week. We go to church in the morning. Then out to brunch. Sometimes with my in-laws, sometimes not. Then we head home for some family vegetation. Family nap time. Danny will predicable put some game or another on TV and within an hour he's snoozing. I usually put everything domestically related off until Monday. If the weather is nice the kids and I will be outside sunning or planting flowers or bulbs. If the weather isn't good for outdoor activities I will settle kids in our room with a DVD. They love relaxing on mom and dad's bed. It's big a squishy. I will then settle myself on the couch with the book of the moment. Currently I am reading "Rapture". Book 3 of the Left Behind prequels. I've read 12 of the 13 Left Behind books. I loved them. I have to say though. The scared me. Knowing where I had been spiritually. I would have been left behind for sure. Now though I am not worried. I accepted the Lord Jesus Christ as my personal savior as has my husband. We raise our children in a Christ centered home. I look forward to the coming of Christ. I cannot wait to bask in his glory.

Early Morning Musinngs

I love the quiet early mornings. I get up about an hour before anyone else in the house. This is my well deserved "me" time. I love to sit outside with my first cup of coffee and watch the sun come up. Soon hubby will be up and it's go go go from there. Babies to change, wash and feed. A school lunch to make and a toast or bagel with Danny before he's off to work. I love mornings.

Last night for dinner we had corn on the cob. I know that doesn't sound very interesting but let me explain. There was a time when, like all children, our eldest daughter was missing her front teeth and eating corn on the cob was, if not hillarious, just plain impossible. So we started talking about it and soon we were all in hysterics remembering Emily and her missed rows of corn. You probbaly had to be there but trust me it really was funny. Sometimes I just am amazed by her, as I am with all of my children, I watch her do her homework or play with the babies and I wonder where my little girl went. She's not grown by any means but she is growing into a fine young lady. She's maturing rapidly and sometimes we'll be driving in the car, talking about things and suddenly I miss the little child she use to be.

This weekend Danny has a 4 day weekend and we're packing up the children and heading to our cabin in Snoqualmie. I am so excited about it. We've only been up there twice so far this year. It's a wonderful family time and there is nothing more important than family time. It's our time for reconnecting and refueling. Danny will take Emily fishing and the babies and I will search for butterflies and bugs of all sorts. None poisonous I hope lol. We have friends who own the cabin a few houses down and they will be up as well. We've got a little bbq planned. After dinner we'll roast marshmellows and made smores. They have a little boy Emily's age so she'll have someone else to play with besides mom and dad.

So as I hear movement in the house I shall say good morning to the masses and head off.

God bless all who read this.

Holy Moly!!!

Where do I begin?!?!?!

I have been way way out of touch with the blogging world for a long time. I started a blog years ago as a way to help myself through a very difficult time in my life. I had cancer. There were times I didn't think I would make it through. I finally decided to let them do the mastectomy. That, I believe, is what saved my life. Afterwards I did a lot of soul searching. I looked deap into myself and really saw myself. It didn't look very good to be perfectly honest. I hadn't been happy for a very long time. I feel as if I'd been treading water and slowly drowning. So, I made some changes. Very drastic changes. I'm talkin, not even the same person, changes. Seriously.

The first change I made was to get right with myself. Accept the things I can't change and change the things I can. So, I did. I started first with my religion. I had been involved in the ocult for a long time. The very scary thing is that I enjoyed it. I studied it and became a high ranking member of my group. I won't go into detail about what it was or how I got there. The important thing is that I am out. After my father passed away I really began to search for where I truly belonged. Oddly enough one afternoon I found myself sitting in my mother's pastor's office pouring out my heart and soul. Life for me changed in that afternoon. I got my sorry butt back into church where I belonged and it wasn't long before I was kneeling at the alter praying with that same pastor. Asking the Lord to forgive me of everything I had done in my life. I was baptised 2 Sundays later. My oldest daughter now askes me when she can be reborn. Her way of saying born again. I tell her when it's her time the Lord will tell her.

Another major change I made was my sexuality. I had been living the life of a lesbian for all or most of my adult life. It was in the pastors office that magical day that I changed that part of myself as well. A few months after I was baptised a new man walked into our church and because I was involved in the new believers social group I was one of the first to meet him. I won't go into detail of his life and what brought him through our doors but it wasn't long before he made his way into my heart. 8 and a half months later I became Mrs. Daniel Landry and I have never been happier in my life. We now have 3 children. My daughter whom he adopted and 2 we adopted together. Cancer left me unable to have more children. Riley entered our life a year ago at the age of 18 months and 6 months ago Mason came to be our son at birth.

I am so madly in love with my life and all that are in it. Words just can't express.